Pink rock with a line of black wrapping around it. A crystal known for healing emotions connected to “unwanted memories” and renewing self-acceptance, love, and peace. What does this stone mean to me? What could it mean for you?
I don’t know how many of you have experience with crystals and their spiritual meanings but if you have been putting off learning them, think of this as your sign. It wasn’t until I asked the universe for a sign on my way to school five years ago that I was introduced to my spiritual journey. I was going to the College of Southern Nevada at the time and had to switch campuses for one year due to scheduling. I can’t recall why I needed that sign, but I knew I was in need of something else to guide me in my time of need (I was already in therapy for a year).
I needed a community.
Upon finding this shop, I gained life-long friends and a connection to spirit when I truly needed it.
On my way home, before I could get to the freeway there was a literal sign next to an entrance for a strip mall. “SAGE” in huge, black letters caught my eye. Merging right then turning into the entrance, I searched for the crystal shop. Back then, the shop was smaller, located in the middle of the strip mall. Heatwaves were already in action when I stepped out of my car. The sun heavily beat down on my skin as I made that short walk to the door.
There was a chime when I stepped through, heavy amounts of sage, palo santo, and patchouli engulfed my senses. New-age music played softly throughout the store. A friendly staff member greeted me with a hug and she guided me around tables and tables filled with crystals. Tourmaline, Onyx, Opal, Angelite, Quartz (clear, pink, smokey, aura), Amethyst, Tiger’s eye. You name it, they had it.
I was home.
Fast forward to now, I’m not an expert by any means, and it’s not an everyday habit of mine to work with crystals. I just have a better understanding of them and what they could help me with.
As an adult, I’ve had my fair share of ups and downs, lows and highs. I never saw the closing of my chapters as renewals. This month’s theme was challenging to me, I couldn’t come up with what renewal actually meant for me. I understood marriage vow renewals but didn’t think the word could have any portrayal in my life. But when it came down to it, my reflection showed me that I am currently going through it.
I have always gone through it. Like reptiles, everyone sheds off the old in order to make way for the new.
This winter wasn’t the easiest for me, at least mentally. Emotionally, I was in a funk that I couldn’t shake up until recently. The beginning of this year has been tough for all the losses my family, friends, and I went through. At the same time, I was getting myself out there with my writing. I had a poem published in UNLV’s Creatives Arts Journal and worked with classmates on an anthology book where my short story was featured in. I began this position with LYF.
I was in a funk but, finally, I didn’t let it stop me. It didn’t derail me. I had a duty not just for myself but for the little one I have at home. I choose love. I choose peace. Most of all, I choose myself.
In last month’s blog, I talked about my abyss and how to escape the unknown. If you haven’t read it yet, I suggest taking a look after reading this one. I’m biased of course.
Pink opal is about renewal for self-acceptance. When I got the stone there was a small part of me that didn’t want to understand what that meant. That’s still the abyss trying to drag me back down. But Selina, how did you accept yourself? Well, fellow reader, I had to start healing again. I don’t know if it’s just the part of getting older (30s I’m heading your way) or if I am finally healing myself of old attachments that I forced myself to hold on to.
I have to accept the things I can’t control. I h